Have you ever been in the middle of something, knowing full well it is the exact place, spot, situation, stage you are suppose to be in…but the catch is you couldn’t wait to get out? It isn’t the typical, “not living in the moment,” thing or “just enjoy where you are because when you are not here you will wish you were back”….it is different and I can’t really explain it. I do love this life stage….young, single, my own place, my own dog, a great job…the list could go on. I couldn’t wait to move to Dallas, live alone and start brand new life…and finally (because I had been praying for it for like four years and it was postponed a year for Switzerland) I am here…and LOVE that God has answered my prayers and is blessing me in the situation. But it is hard. It is lonely, there are struggles, it is expensive, every mistake counts, every reward counts. It is kind of like a survival of the fittest type thing. No?
As I read back over that… I do realize that I am fabricating a bit…I would love to be in a new stage of life like marriage, or a close knit community of friends etc.; but am loving this life stage too. Like sometimes I look up and realize that I am living life exactly how I want. For instance…when I was in Switzerland the Lord gave me a vision for a hospitality ministry out of my home. I can see it playing out. I have been able to have people in and out of my home; minister to them, pray for them, encourage them…it has been simply amazing! I love seeing the plans of the Lord play out in front of me.
I can also see how this stage of life is preparing me and enhancing my hospitality ministry (I see it being more than just having people in and out of my home….one day). Working underneath of my dear friend Jason I have learned so much about discipleship. I know God is calling me to bring hospitality and discipleship together…and I couldn’t be more excited. He has also used this time to grow a heart for Africa (Eak…I can’t wait to see what unfolds!)
All of that to say, the other morning I started my day at 4:23am…yes A.M. I had no idea why! I couldn’t fall back asleep. I could tell that God was drawing me in and so I just started to pray for people that were crossing my mind…a co-worker; a new friend that just aborted her twins, my brother…and I put on my itunes and this song came on…the words were so reassuring to me during this stage of life! So I got up and went to watch the sunrise…come to find out the place I chose wasn’t a great place to watch the sun rise…but none the less it was a blessed and intimate morning with my Savior.
Be blessed today!